• Sort Blog:
  • All
  • Book Reviews
  • EA Rotterdam
  • Essays
  • Flotes
  • Goals
  • Links
  • Series
  • Short Stories
  • Uncategorized

Het Tekort van het Teveel

Het Tekort van het Teveel (The shortcomings of too much) by Damiaan Denys offers a critical perspective on mental healthcare. The main thesis is that we want to do too much, for too many people. We should focus our efforts on those who are suffering the most, whilst limiting the public investments into helping people who are doing so-so. Going broader than this, Damiaan (or at least my interpretation) argues that we shouldn’t try and solve everything, we should be able to sit with our pain and live with discomfort.

Read: 1x | First: June 2021

We were in the jungle. There were too many of us. We had access to too much money, too much equipment. And little by little we went insane.” – Francis Ford Coppola (quoted at the start of the book, director of Apocalypse Now, describing the situation in Vietnam

Summary Review of ‘Het Tekort van het Teveel’

1. The Paradox

  • One in four people will develop mental health issues during their lifetime (WHO, 2001)
  • Those suffering from mental health issues have double the chance of dying from cardiovascular diseases
  • 90% of suicides are accompanied by mental health issues
  • 60% of those in need don’t receive mental healthcare, leading to 13,5 million deaths per year (The Lancet, 2018)
  • The estimated lost productivity and Disability-Adjusted Life-Years (DALY’s) lost between 2011 and 2030 is estimated at 16.300 billion
  • The investment, per person, on mental health care is but 2,5 dollar per year (between 0,1 to 21,7 dollar, Knapp & Wong, 2020)
  • Many experts are calling this a ‘global mental health crisis’

Damiaan identifies three problems underlying the crisis:

  1. The incompetence of governments
    • More than 40% has no mental health care policy, 30% no program, 25% no laws on this (WHO, 2001)
    • No government is able to provide adequate funding (though, see his later points on this, Andrews & Henderson, 2000)
    • In developing countries, there is a severe lack of access to mental health care (The Lancet, 2018)
  2. The inability of current science
    • Psychiatry itself is in crisis (Gardner & Kleinman, 2019)
    • There haven’t yet been much progress in the understanding of mental health disorders
    • (me: I would say that some therapies including those with psychedelics are paving a way forward here)
  3. The immense scale of psychological suffering
    • It’s estimated that 1 billion people are suffering from mental health issues (alas no source given)
    • 14% of lost (happy) years is due to mental health issues (no source)
      • From Rehm & Schield (2019);
      • 1 billion people living with mental and addictive disorders in 2016
      • 7% of global burden of disease as measured in DALYs
      • 19% of all years lived with disability
    • Since 1990, there have been no improvements in mental health globally (The Lancet, 2019)
    • Although there is the same prevalence (number of people with X), the need/demands on care keeps rising (MHF and other sources)
    • Those living in wealthy (WEIRD) countries are impacted more and are more vulnerable for psychological suffering

The subtitle of the book is ‘The Paradox of Mental Health Care’ and it’s explained as follows:

  1. The first paradox is that you would expect richer countries to do better, not worse
  2. The second paradox is that (in the current system) it’s unsolveable as the actions taken have the opposite effect of what is wanted

The Netherlands

  • 5th place on world happiness ranking (39)
  • 89% thinks they are psychologically health (40)
    • 95% of kids between 12 and 16
  • 40% will develop a mental health issue during their lifetime (42)
  • In each year (year incidence) this is 20%
    • 21% mood disorders
    • 20% anxiety disorders
    • 19% addiction
    • 9% attention & behaviour issues
  • The Netherlands spends 7,3 billion euros on health care (43)
    • 4 billion of this on curative (to cure)
    • 1,7 billion on protected living
    • 1 billion on youth mental health care (‘jeugd-GGZ)
    • 0,6 billion on long-term care (44)
  • The percentage of the budget going to mental health care is the highest in the EU (45)
  • This care is being done by 19.000 professionals (49)
    • 3.500 psychiatrists
    • 15.000 psychologists
    • 24.000 nurses
  • The Netherlands is the best place to go crazy.”
  • Between 1980 and 1997, there was a doubling in the number of intakes (51)
  • Between 2000 and 2010, the costs rose from 2,9 billion to 6,1 billion (57)
  • Between 2003 and 2018, the number of psychiatrists rose from 2400 to 3700 (59)
  • Or in other words, the number of personell or the abundance of money aren’t the problems here
    • More health care institutes are filing for bankruptcy (61) WHY?
    • Waiting lists are becoming longer and work pressure is rising (FIND SOURCE)
    • At the moment of writing, more than 90.000 people each year are on waiting lists (per year or at any moment???)
    • It takes about 8 weeks to be referred somewhere
    • The work pressure is leading to many health care professionals wanting to leave the field

The rest of the book will dissect this paradox by looking at the three components in this system, 1) the health care system, 2) the care offer, and 3) the care demand.

2. The Health Care System

aa

3. Care Offer

aa

4. Care Demand

aa

5. The (ab)Normality

aa

6. The Paradox

aa

7. The Shortcomings of Too Much

aa

8. Epilogue

aa

Project Hail Mary

Project Hail Mary by Andy Weir is another cool space engineering adventure by the author of The Martian. Here our adventurer wakes up on a spaceship and needs to find a way to save the earth from astrophages. A lot of engineering and dry humour later, well you will have to read for yourself.

Read: 1x | First: May 2021

This was another great read (listen) and it had many of the characteristics of Andy Weir’s previous books (The Martian, Artemis). It was fun, showered you with cool engineering and physics problems, and didn’t take itself too seriously.

Ryland Grace is the protagonist of the book and the sole survivor of the space journey that has taken place before the present time. Because of the medically induced coma (he thinks), his memory from before is fuzzy and the reader is presented with bits and pieces throughout the book. Or in other words, that is used as a convenient way to tell the backstory.

It’s interesting to see the reluctance that he started with, that he even didn’t want to go in the end (and that Strat drugged him), but throughout it all, he did want to do the science and contribute to the survival of humanity.

Whilst at Tau Ceti (a nearby solar system) he meets an alien who is also the lone survivor of his mission to save his home system. He and Rocky (who looks like a huge spider) learn to communicate (the latter speaking in musical notes, and not having vision but echolocation) and become friends.

After a lot of science, some major screw-ups, and a visit to a local planet, the two figure out how to stop the astrophages from consuming the sun(s). Instead of coming back a hero, Ryland comes back to save Rocky and go to his solar system.

There, Ryland ends up a teacher (which he was before too) and the book comes full circle.

All and all, amazing book, and definitely one to re-read someday.

Getting Higher

This post originally appeared on Blossom Analysis.

Getting Higher by Julian Vayne is a manual for exploring the use of psychedelic substances, and provides a variety of things that someone may consider doing before embarking on a psychedelic journey, which includes cleansing the body through washing, intentional diet, choosing clothes to wear, decorating the physical space and setting an intention. It emphasizes the importance of choosing a group of people to trip with that have mutual trust and respect for one another, and the importance of rounding off the ceremony with a formal conclusion of the session. Furthermore, it introduces techniques that can navigate or even intensify the psychedelic experience, such as breathwork, meditation, and other forms of concerted group activities, as well as artistic explorations that include drawing or painting, consciously consuming sensory content.

Read: 1x | First: April 2021

Publisher Summary of Getting Higher

Getting Higher is a manual for exploring the use of psychedelic substances in the contexts of spirituality, self-transformation and magic. This is the psychonaut s essential guide. The techniques presented here work whether you’re a scientist or a shaman; there’s no requirement to believe in anything other than the wonder of your own neurochemistry and the value of the psychedelic experience. Getting Higher describes the psychedelic triangle of Set, Setting and Substance. It suggests strategies to hold and enhance the psychedelic experience; from games to play when you are high, through to complete entheogenic ceremonies. It will help you to intelligently explore the territory of both traditional sacred plants and modern magical molecules. Getting Higher is a toolbox for technicians of the sacred; ideal for both novices and experienced psychonauts. Inspired by the wisdom of ancient cultures, and informed by the latest advances in psychedelic science, this book is a powerful ally for all those following the Medicine Path.”

Summary Review of Getting Higher

Getting Higher finds its roots in esoteric culture, in the occult realms of shamanism, witchcraft, parapsychology, and tarot cards. And it is good to know that this is what has formed some of the ideas presented in the book. But if there is one thing to take away from this summary, then it is that this book is accessible to everyone. From the aspiring rationalists to those who are more in touch with spiritual practices.

David Luke says in his foreword that Julian Vayne has written a book that combines drugs and magic. Or as the author put it himself, the book is a manual for both experienced and novel psychonauts. The manual offers insights for everyone from those seeking therapeutic experience, to those who just want to get really high. And, as is often the case, people come at a psychedelic experience with multiple intentions. In the broadest sense of the term, this book is intended to help you get higher.

Chapter 1 – Calling to the Spirits

The first chapter describes the preparations done at the start of a psychedelic experience. For someone less familiar with altars, the following describes does well in highlighting why it’s there: “We have externalised the psychedelic experience into this icon so we can speak to it as we would another person.” Making the invisible visible, to have something present during the experience.

This externalization, or making concrete, possibly also mirrors how Internal Family Systems (IFS) therapy makes the different aspects of your psyche/personality more visible.

Chapter 2 – The Medicine Path

Mind altering drugs go with human spirituality the same way that music goes with human celebration.” (see The Immortality Key for more on this).

There are many reasons to do psychedelics, and these are just a few of them:

  • Self Exploration – examining your own psyche
  • Healing – of psychological ails and sometimes/possibly also physical problems (or learning better to deal with them)
  • Numinous Experience – positive peak experiences
  • Other Realities – as defined by the individual themselves
  • Occult or Parapsychological – using them for acts of magic
  • Creative Insight – creative problem solving
  • Preparation for Death – simulating the experience of dying
  • Reset – as a starting point for new directions
  • Recreation – experiencing the joy of life

When using psychedelics with care and within ritual, the effect may be greatly enhanced. This has been seen both with therapy with MDMA in a clinical setting (e.g. Jerome et al., 2020), as well as the large placebo/contextual effects of the psychedelic setting (Uthaug et al., 2021).

There may be neurological benefits to the use of psychedelics. Here Vayne highlights some of the changes that happen in the brain of someone on psychedelics, from lower top-down processing to more connections between different areas of the brain (e.g. Luppi et al., 2021).

Chapter 3 – The Psychoactive Triangle

The psychoactive triangle consists of the set (mindset), setting (social and environmental context), and substance (the psychedelic in question).

When investigating the dosages of psychedelics, Vayne has ranked them in this order:

  1. Baseline – before (or after) psychedelic ingestion
  2. Placebo dose – where expectancy effects can still lead to changes, but no drug has been given
  3. Microdose – a low enough dose that is perceived consciously (see all papers on microdosing)
  4. Threshold dose – sometimes also called a mini-dose, where it’s just barely perceptible
  5. Effective dose – where you do really feel something
  6. Low, medium, and strong doses – increasing levels of effect
  7. Dissociative dose – where memory is impaired and unconsciousness could happen
  8. LD50 – the dose at which half of the population would die, this is 100s of times higher than a strong dose for psychedelics (and only a few times higher for alcohol)

The useful ranking system from PiHKaL is also repeated here:

  1. Minus – no effects
  2. Plus/Minus – threshold action, just perceptable
  3. Plus One – there is action, but not quite definable (e.g. the jitters during a come-up)
  4. Plus Two – real effects, but you’re still able to suppress it and go about your day
  5. Plus Three – ignoring is not possible anymore, totally engaging experience
  6. Plus Four – peak experience, a state of bliss, religious experience

There are different ways of ingesting psychedelics and range from slow (eating, drinking) to rapid (IV, or absorption via a cut). Technology has recently added new ways of ingesting psychedelics, from continuously releasing patches to vaporizing devices.

With regards to the naturalness of psychedelics, Vayne argues that both are valid and that the line between them is more blurred than sometimes is assumed. Even if a psychedelic can be found, we usually still do some man-made processing such as heating them. A plus for artificial drugs is that the dose is usually easier to calculate (and thus effects can be somewhat more predictable).

The effects of psychedelics are (broadly) defined as uppers (amphetamines), downers (opiates), and those who change our perception of the world. Of course, many compounds show characteristics of multiple effects (e.g. MDMA or ketamine combine the upper/downer effects with mind-altering effects).

Body load refers to all the effects that psychedelics have on the body, from yawning to feelings of anxiety. Rituals around the use of psychedelics usually help reduce the negative experiences around body load. Experiences such as singing together, to playing card games during the come-up are just two examples of ways to focus the attention away from the body (load).

The chapter ends with a note about contact high, experiencing psychedelic effects by someone who is with a group, but has taken no substance themselves. Vayne suggests that someone who wants to (lightly) experience psychedelic effects, could do it via this route.

Chapter 4 – Beginning the Journey

Psychedelic drugs radically rearrange our experience of the world. They cleanse the doors of perception, so that the most mundane of things can be appreciated as wonderful, curious and even divine.”

There is a large contrast between the traditional use of psychedelics and that with clinical studies. In the former, psychedelics are taken within the context (setting) of a group and with the leader/host often participating in taking psychedelics. In the latter, someone is (usually) alone with a therapist. This chapter highlights some things we can do before tripping, at the start of the journey.

  • Washing – ranging from just hands to taking a bath
  • Fasting – which can be a psychological experience and also leads to faster absorption
  • Wear loose-fitting clothes
  • Blankets – for keeping warm and feeling safe/comfortable
  • Making your setting beautiful – cleaning the house, adding art, flowers, etc
  • Have water available
  • Turn of your phone
  • Arranging light – from candles to electronic (strobe) lights

One should be aware of the level of trust and respect required when experiencing psychedelics together. Often personal details are disclosed, and one should be aware that this may/will happen.

Prayers, spells and invocations can also be said at the beginning of a trip. Another way of putting this is the ‘statement of intent’, saying out loud what you hope this trip will bring you.

On page 32 the text of an opening ritual is given.

Chapter 5 – Core Techniques

This chapter discusses various ‘core techniques’ that one can use during a psychedelic experience. Some are similar to what is being used in clinical studies, but many are much closer to what people do in psychedelic experiences from Amazonian shamanistic rituals to Western group experiences.

  • Breathwork – “deliberately slowing and deepening the breath serves to calm the bodymind as a whole”
  • Hawk breath – forceful breathing in combination with raising and lowering arms from over the head towards the heart or tan tien (slightly lower)
  • Sun Moon breath – breathing to access/connect to yin energy
  • Partner and group breathing – passing a breath around (one breaths after the next one)
  • Breathwork systems – these include ones such as Holotropic Breathwork
  • Light breath and Tonglen – imagining breathing in positive and breathing out negative energy
  • Meditation – e.g. mindfulness meditation and becoming aware of the here and now (can also be beneficial before and after a session)
  • Pre-recorded music – “Listening to music provides both a wrapper around the trip and interesting content to focus on while high” (see all papers that mention music)
    • Multi-layered music, it is proposed, can be most interesting during the peak of a trip
  • Making music – from singing to mouth harps
  • Drumming – usually at 200 beats per minute in Native American peyote rituals
  • Movement – dancing together (e.g. like is happening at a festival or rave) can create a shared experience
  • Posture – the posture you take may influence your mood (alas the psychological research into this has been largely debunked, still there may be a small (and amplified under psychedelic) effect here)
  • Balance – doing anything from yoga to slacklining
  • Weaving the ‘Web of Wyrd‘ – “The Web of Wyrd is a metaphor for fate and destiny derived from women’s spinning.
  • Gestures – this can be anything from holding hands to doing mirrored movements
  • Sensuality and sexuality – think group hugs and massage, but be very clear about what is appropriate before the session starts
  • Animal forms – simulating the movement of animals (just like martial arts use this as an analogy, but here also meant more literal I think)

Chapter 6 – Internal Journeys

This chapter presents two examples of ‘guided imagery processes’, the use of stories that aim to induce a state of trance vision.

Chapter 7 – Advances in the Ultraworld

Just like the fifth chapter, this one offers suggestions for many things that one could do whilst tripping. They range from visiting a museum, to experiencing a festival.

  • Artistic explorations – drawing, painting, etc. “Psychedelics provide us with an opportunity to play with paint, draw in the sand or mould clay in a way where we can reconnect to a child-like appreciation of exploration and fun without self-critical judgements about making ‘good’ art or a specific final product.”
  • Consuming content – movies, series (some of which are made to be enjoyed whilst high)
  • Wonderful things – become enamored with everyday objects
  • Sculpts – moving/placing objects within a space and endowing them with meaning
  • Cut-ups – rearranging things to find serendipitous meaning
  • Playing games – from Frisbee to Twister (personal recommendation: Dixit during come-up)
  • The Superheroes game – describing the superhero qualities of your friends
  • Psychogeography – playing with movement and location (going on an exploratory walk)
  • Museum level – “describes a dosage of any substance that allows the user to successfully enjoy a public space … in an altered state of awareness”
  • Vigil & vision quests – doing a solo journey (sometimes also done with fasting)
  • Raves & Festivals – celebrating life with others, and also giving meaning to the preparation before such an evening
  • Mindful Smoking – smoking tobacco, sometimes part of shamanic rituals
  • Sigil – a representation of a desire in an abstract way
  • Mimetic magic – also known as sympathetic magic
  • Divination – externalizing your thinking in objects (e.g. tarot cards) and finding meaning and understanding that way
  • Sensory deprivation – from blindfolds to floatation tanks (one such ritual under the influence of ketamine is described)

Chapter 8 – The Medicine Circle

This chapter is inspired by the Native American peyote circle and describes elements of a medicine circle. A circle is usually led by an experienced person (Roadman, Medicine Carrier), who can be assisted by several helpers who can help with anything from keeping the fire going to helping people who are ‘getting well’ (i.e. vomiting).

Many medicine circles recommend that people engage in a variety of preparatory rituals. These range from eating a certain (usually plant-based) diet, fasting the (half) day before, and refraining from sexual activity.

During the ceremony, a central altar could be made that represents a certain ‘energy’ and makes visible some of the abstract thoughts/ideas/intentions.

When a group starts, a statement of intent could be made. Confessions, or talking about what problems you’re bringing to the circle, are then shared, a talking stick could be used to facilitate this ritual. When taking the medicine (which should be voluntary and could be skipped at each round by the participants), the leader should take into account the state of the participants (e.g. using the Shulgin Scale).

The latter parts of the chapter describe a variety of other things to do during a ceremony. Time for silence, taking breaks, drinking water, prayers, movement, and more are discussed.

In the end, Vayne stresses that there is no clear distinction between spirituality and fun, both can happen within the same ritual. Challenging experiences and hearty laughter can happen in the same evening, and relaxation and deep contemplation are not mutually exclusive.

Chapter 9 – A Guide for the Perplexed

Experiences with a guide can also be helpful, and this is how Western/clinical experiences usually are conducted. A guide can provide context, grounding, integration and reflection. Unlike in some/many circles, the guide or sitter doesn’t take the psychedelic themselves.

Sitters can also provide grounding through physical, non-sexual, touch such as holding hands.

Chapter 10 – Dealing with Challenges

Challenges may arise during a psychedelic experience and they shouldn’t necessarily be avoided. “These processes can be vital part of the transformative power of the trip…” Then can, however, be attenuated by employing one of the following strategies:

  • Changing the setting: changing music, offering a blanket, going from inside to outside
  • Changing the set: focussing on breathing, recalling a pleasant memory, focus on the music
  • Changing the substance: seek medical attention if needed, keeping the airway clear if vomiting (but most challenging experiences are caused by anxiety and not bad/adulterated drugs)
    • There are currently no trip-stoppers publically available that are guaranteed to work, but anecdotally a vitamin C pill or fruit juice may help (if only as a placebo)
  • Relax and float downstream: ride it out, know that ‘this too shall pass’
  • Refining your rapture: not taking more of a substance, but increasing its effects by fasting or other methods

Chapter 11 – On Coming Down

When coming down from a trip, making sense shouldn’t be the immediate priority. This could be left for another moment when you come back together as a group (the next day or week). Recording thoughts during, immediately after, or the next day could be helpful in processing the trip.

All that is left is to integrate the experience back into daily life. Are there lessons to be put into habit or insights that you can bring forward? Doing this consciously (e.g. discussing the trip afterward) or unconsciously, will hopefully help bring lessons from the trip to your daily life.

More resources related to this book can be found at theblogofbaphomet.com/getting-higher

Invisible Planets

Invisible Planets is edited and translated by Ken Liu and features 13 awesome sci-fi stories from China.

Just like Broken Stars, Lui features an interesting casts of writers. All can be classified as somewhat sci-fi but differ a lot in the types of stories.

Read: 1x | First: April 2021

Here are the stories with mini-notes:

Chen Qiufan

  • The Year of the Rat (ok, not my story)
  • The Fish of Lijiang (interesting concept, faster time for productivity, slower for old age) *
  • The Flower of Shazui

Xia Jia

  • A Hundred Ghosts Parade Tonight
  • Tongtong’s Summer (human-controlled robot-helpers, good take – random business idea: sensors on grandparents for safety but also for grandchildren to connect to toy that has their heart-beat etc)
  • Night Journey of the Dragon-Horse

Ma Boyong

  • The City of Silence (inspired by 1984, good story) *

Hao Jingfang

  • Invisible Planets (title of book, but not my type of story)
  • Folding Beijing (could easily turn into a sci-fi movie, very good) *

Tang Fei

  • Call Girl (interesting) *

Cheng Jingbo

  • Grave of the Fireflies

Liu Cixin

  • The Circle (adapted from Three Body Problem) *
  • Taking Care of God (very Liu Cixin – small premise, big story)

Some great sentences I came across:

  • “The biggest fear is for someone else to understand what you really fear” (p62)
  • A man is such a strange animal: fear and desire are expressed by the same organ.” (p63)
  • … technology is neutral. But the progress of technology will cause a free world to become ever freer, and a totalitarian world to become ever more repressive.” (p182)
  • [his father] had held fast to the thin reed of opportunity as the tide of humanity surged and then receded around him until at last he found himself a survivor on the dry beach.” (p231)
  • Morning climbs in through the window as shadow recedes from Tang Xiaoyi’s body like a green tide imbued with the fragrance of trees.”
  • Each individual’s behavior is so simple, yet together, they can produce such complex intelligence.” (p314)

Public Commitment 2021 – Update 1

This years theme is Serial Tasking. The goal is to be more focussed and work on the things I’m saying I will work on.

Recently I’ve been listening a lot to the podcast by Cal Newport (Deep Work) and the biggest concept from there is time blocking. Something I do, but then am not as good at enforcing as I should be.

In my own words, time blocking means planning out your day (according to your weekly plan, which is building on your monthly/quarterly plan). And then doing exactly that which you had planned in that time.

Ways I can improve on doing this (vs switching to different tasks), is to have either my notebook open (where I make the planner on paper), and/or the iPad open with Toggl running (which indicates the time block that is ongoing). I think that I should also start discussing the day with Onno, Queal co-founder, again.

Ok, enough rambling, onto the goals for this year.

Goal 1: Write something every day

I have been writing things, but not consistently every day. I now have that time-blocked in the morning so that I can focus on writing before I jump into email and all that.

I have also started using Calendly to start grouping calls on Thursdays so I have more time also on other days to write.

One big thing that will help with writing is that the database should be nearing the finish line so I should, after that, have more time to focus on writing each day.

And just to note, this could be anything as small as a few paragraphs about a psychedelic term, to a long book review (or part of an essay that I can publish independently – I think the metric should be to publish something each day).

Goal 2: Promote my work

I’ve been doing this ok-ish on Twitter for Blossom. There are still many more ways to do this that I know of already.

Another way to become better at this, is to partner with someone who has more feeling for this. But I think the first part is, that I block time (during my end-of-work checklist <- I’ve been making a few of these) each day to see/check if I’ve shared my work that day.

Another part of the things that I want to share is more art work. But for now, I fear that I wont have enough time to do that.

Goal 3: Meditate daily

Going very well. I don’t know how much transfers to being more aware during the day, but is a good start of the day (followed by some exercises).

Goal 5: Learn 3 songs on the harmonica

I have been practicing some, but less than I wanted. Still, I think I can already play 3 songs if I’m looking at the notes.

This month I’ve switched my goal from playing each day (which wasn’t working), to playing 3x p/w.

Goal 6: Add 2 features to this website

The dark mode is done (can of course improve it, but no priority now).

I do have plans for adding more search functions to the book reviews and have already added my Obsidian notes so that I can find them here too.

Goal 7: Improve my learning process

The addition of Obsidian should help with this process. Still, I don’t (very) regularly make notes there.

One thing that has been going well is studying my Anki notes, and I plan to add more notes to there to really keep the spaced repetition going.

Goal 8: Move more money towards effective charities

This is something for later months, but for now I’ve made the post for GWWC and plan to publish my blog for the EA forum sometime soon.

And, some more concrete goals for Blossom and Queal

Queal

  1. Increase revenue by 20%
    1. Ongoing, did some experiments in the first few months of this year
    2. Brexit has not been nice to us, but hopefully all solved by next week

Blossom

  1. Launch/run Blossom Analysis (ongoing!)
    1. Weekly updates
    2. Database
    3. Essays (psychedelics and …)
  2. Launch/run Blossom Guides (later, if we’re vaccinated)
    1. 2 to 3 sessions per week by mid 2021
    2. Possibly together with other coaches
  3. Launch/run smaller projects (first two going well, last two in statis)
    1. PsychedelicsBooks
    2. PsychedelicsCourses
    3. PsychedelicsDirectory
    4. PsychedelicsProtocol
  4. Launch/Kickstart PsychedeliCards (no, not enough time, maybe before holidays)
    1. First half of 2021

Finally, some goals that are more for fun/relaxation/habit

  1. Do sports 5 out of every 7 days (yes)
    • Same for mobility training (yes, but only short)
  2. Achieve <12% bodyfat (not currently main focus)
  3. Play videogames for more than 100 hours (estimate 2020: <10 hours) (going well)
  4. Drink fewer alcoholic drinks than last year (estimate/log 2020: sum 559, average 1.5, median 0 (more days no drinks), max 15, 10+ 5 times, ~56.000kcal ~18 days of energy) (90 so far, so on schedule)
  5. Learn to ride a motorcycle (first exam done, two more to go)

Managing Oneself

Managing Oneself by Peter Drucker is a short booklet (monograph I think) on how to live a good and productive life. It provides some ways of thinking about how to manage your own life (vs being lived/going with the Flow).

Read: 1x | First: February 2021

Finding Your Strength

We are often clueless about what our strengths are. Drucker advises to write down what you expected to happen at a key decision, and then to review that. Or in other words, to make a prediction and see which predictions came true, finding your strengths.

From this feedback analysis, he finds several implications:

  1. Concentrate on your strengths, where they can produce results
  2. Work on improving your strengths, fill the gaps in your knowledge
  3. Find where you’re ignorant, and work on this to enable your strength to really shine

Applied: I do monthly and quarterly OKRs (Measure What Matters) where I also make predictions on what I will do. Although this has less to do with decisions, it allows me to plan what to work on and identify what needs to change to realize it.

The last point also made me think about your personality/skills as described in the Early Retirement Extreme. Here, from memory, I think the author described your personality to be a T-shape (or inverted T-shape). One where you are ok in many skills (vs being bad) and very good at only one skill.

This is not to say that you should focus your energy everywhere (or nowhere as there is limited time). No, you should work only on those things that help you improve your strength. 1) execute your strengths, 2) improve them, 3) remove blockages.

What Environment Allows me to Perform Well

So, how do I perform? Is the next question in the booklet. Here Drucker proposes a few different ways of working. The first is ‘reader vs listener’. How do you ingest knowledge to make decisions? The second is the way you learn (e.g. writing, speaking, sketching). The third is your style/level of cooperation, do you work well together or prefer to work alone? The fourth is a distinction between advising and leading/making decisions.

Why ask these questions? Because you’re unlikely to change yourself, but you can choose the environment you’re working in. To find an environment where you thrive, not one where you have to go against your instincts all the time.

Applied: I’m definitely a reader and in work thrive by reading something and then (slowly) exploring those ideas (vs directly responding). And I’m a writer, learning by trying to explain something (meta: as I’m doing here). I like to work together, at a distance, and cooperate with many people whilst having long stretches of time to work on my own. In those relationships, I like to be the leader/decision-maker. And I like to work in small organizations (start-ups) in a somewhat structured environment.

Your Values

What kind of person do I want to see in the mirror in the morning?” This is what Drucker has dubbed the mirror test, and it shows you something about your values.

This part of the booklet goes deeper into the values or worldview that you bring into work. This can be a long-term vision vs short-term profits, or values around work-life balance that you have.

Your values and strengths don’t always align. For Drucker this resulted in him leaving his financial job (during the Great Depression) and started building his consulting business.

Applied: I value understanding above most other things. Money is something that can enable this, but isn’t a goal in itself. Transparency, honesty, speed of execution, trust, using thinking tools, being critical, are some of the other values/words that come to mind. In time, I should have more on this on the ‘Me‘ page.

Where to take your Strengths, Performance, and Values?

Drucker posits that not many gifted people know where they belong before their late twenties. By knowing what you’re good at, you can become better at knowing where you don’t belong. And it allows you to better say no to opportunities that look good on paper, but don’t match with you specifically.

Applied: I know that my skills won’t do (that) well within large organizations. I love my freedom (to spend my time where I want it) too much. I also wouldn’t do well if I had to work on something that doesn’t have much value to add to the world (e.g. improving the flavour of biscuit X).

What Should I Contribute?

The answer to this question should address three elements.

  1. What does the situation/environment require?
  2. Given my strengths/performance/values how can I add the most? (unique contribution)
  3. What results have to be achieved to make a difference?

Drucker further specifies that the results you plan for can only be 18 months into the future, should be hard to achieve (stretch goals), but still within reach. The results should be meaningful, make a difference, visible, and measurable. Or, to put it in 21st-century lingo, to be SMART goals.

Applied: Currently my goals are related to building out Blossom. Here my competitive advantage is my ability to build something from nothing. And to execute on that vision and build. I have recruited a small team which I will expand, as I will do with the resources. I know that I’m not the best at promotion and should find someone else to help with that part. The results that need to be achieved are the completion of the database and then to add new features. This then needs to be used by everyone from researchers to legislators and help them move the field forward faster.

Building Responsible Relationships

You’re almost never working alone. The first thing about working with others is that you should know they are different (values, strengths, etc). The second lesson is that you should ask them what they are doing and how they do their work (i.e. communication). Or as I have learned from running a study association to my personal life (where, of course, it’s the most difficult) to over-communicate.

Even people who understand the importance of taking responsibility for relationships often do not communicate sufficiently with their associates.”

By telling others how you work (and asking them how they work), you gain valuable information and learn how to better work together. I think this is the strength of tools like the MBTI, learning that other people are different.

Building responsible relationships is about building trust (The Speed of Trust). Knowing who you are and how others think, helps build that trust.

Applied: When starting to work together with others, it could be good to ask them about their values and ways of working. Currently I don’t have a framework for this, but based on this book and other tools like the MBTI could develop something that we could use as a guideline for a conversation.

A Second Career

Drucker thinks that the midlife crisis of 45 year old executives is caused by boredom. He proposes three ways of starting a second career:

  1. Start in a new field (to challenge yourself again)
  2. Develop a parallel career (e.g. help at church)
  3. Become a social entrepreneur (start a non-profit)

You must begin long before you enter [your second career].”

Developing a second career is also a good way to shield yourself from a setback. If things at work don’t progress, you can find challenge and joy in your volunteer work for instance.

Applied: In a way, I’m already working on the second career, second start-up. But as meant in the booklet, I think that I would want to become a social entrepreneur in the field of psychedelics for mental health improvements. But let’s first see how the field develops.

Sustainability and Consumption

On Wednesday 10th of March 2021, the Effective Altruism (EA) Rotterdam group hosted their 16th reading & discussion group.

This is our deeper dive into EA topics to learn and take action to change the world for the better.

Join our next meetup!

Every SECOND WEDNESDAY OF THE MONTH

The topic for this event was Sustainable Consumption.

During the evening we discussed ways consumption (buying/using products/services) and sustainability are at odds. We looked at this through a personal and societal (global CO2) lens. And we asked what, if anything, we can or should do.

The presentation was held by Laurin and was interjected with a lively discussion of these topics.

The event was digital and at its peak was attended by eight people.

Here are the presentation, questions, reading materials, and my personal summary of the event.

Go to our Meetup page to sign up for our next event.

Presentation of Sustainability and Consumption

We started the evening with a presentation by Laurin. The round-table discussion was held after each third of the presentation.

Download the presentation

1. Individual Consumption or Footprint

The average US citizen consumes (or rather, produces) 16.3 Tons of CO2 (or CO2 equivalents) per year.

If you’re really conscious (as you can see in this YouTube video) about your consumption, you may cut that in half to about 6.9 Tons per year.

  • Noted should be that he could even cut this number in half again if he didn’t take one long flight each year

If you want to reduce your CO2 footprint, Laurin had the following tips:

  1. You can roughly half the food emissions by changing to a predominantly plant-based diet
    • 1.5 Tons / Year
  2. You can drastically improve heating/cooling and home energy emissions by using renewable energy
    • 2 Tons / Year
  3. Avoid driving a car or flights
    • 2.5 Tons / Year
    • 0.25 Tons / Hour Flying (e.g. 8 hours flying = 2 Tons (and 2 for the way back))
  4. Buy less, buy things that last, buy second hand

2. Global CO2

Laurin showed the difference between the target of 1.5 ton per year and what is actually happening. Even if we’re saving on emissions, we’re not getting there anytime soon.

Developing countries like India are already surpassing this target, and that should be celebrated in some sense.

And some people have a larger CO2 footprint than others, such as Paris Hilton.

The pollution and where we can save aren’t mapped one-on-one. There is a lot we can save with food (not throwing it away in many places in the food chain), but less in buildings and transport.

3. What To Do About Greenhouse Gas Emissions?

There are many things we can do that have a large impact. The solutions (see slide 11) have to do with land use, nuclear energy, and refrigerant management. But not with ridesharing, trains, or green roofs.

Round-Table Discussion

1. Have you changed anything in your life to reduce your carbon footprint?

During the meetup, we discussed changes such as going vegetarian or vegan and that being motivated (in part) by environmental reasons. We also discussed the need for policy changes, as that can drive personal choices (e.g. via taxes).

I’ve calculated my own carbon footprint at CarbonFootprint.com and came to the following numbers and realizations:

  • Total 8.96 t p/y
  • House 2.05 t p/y
    • Electricity 300 kWh = 0.14 tons per month
    • Natural gas 1136 kWh (from 100 m3 with this calculator) = 0.21 tons
    • But: divide by 2 as I’m living together = 0.17 t p/m = 2.04 t p/y
    • And get green energy but haven’t looked at the impact of that
  • Flights 3.73 t p/y
    • Example flight to Asia, beaches of Bali (with radiative forcing, from Amsterdam) 3.73 t
    • Example flight (not included) to Istanbul 0.62 t
    • Example flight (not included) to Vancouver Canada 2.15 t
  • Car X (no car, only very occasional rental for IKEA trip or the like)
  • Motorbike 0.31 t p/y
    • (aspirational, working on drivers license)
    • Based on 4000 km on a medium motorbike
    • Apparently, only 1.3% of motorbikes are currently electric, but if you’re using renewable energy, it should be near emissions-free
  • Bus & Rail 0.07 t p/y
    • Based on 2000 km per year in train
    • (could be lower if using motorbike)
  • Secondary 4.58 t p/y
    • Food (vegetarian, but mostly vegan) 1.4 t (or 1.06 t)
    • Mortgage 1.46 (hmm, don’t know why that is, if it’s because of the house or the money that then is invested in CO2 producing things?)
    • Computer/tech stuff 0.48 t (based on €500 per year)
    • Recreational, cultural, sports 0.79 t (based on €3000 p/y)
  • Total ideas
    • A large part is contained in flying, something that will of course increase over the years (for the world as people get richer)
    • Motorbike doesn’t really matter much

3. Global CO2 and what to do?

After showing that the global target is 1.5 ton per year, we understood that changing one’s behaviour is not going to cut it. Negatively, it means that we will not get there. Positively, it means that by changing your behaviour (and influencing others to do so too), we’re giving ourselves more runway. More runway for newer technologies, carbon capture, and other things to deal with/prevent climate change.

One example of the positive impact of personal choice was that of cultured meat. There is a demand (from rich people) that is driving the innovation, and something in which the Chinese (largest growing market for meat) government is now investing (source, via 80k podcast).

3. What Should We Do?

The discussion boiled down to the following recommendations:

  1. Donate (you can more than offset your impact)
    • See recommendations here
    • Estimates are between a few cents and $5 per ton CO2
  2. Influence politics/policies (largen your impact)
    • Vote green/progressive
  3. Reduce (it’s still part of the solution, and probably your identity too)
    • Flying is the big one, but know that your impact with donations can be 100x larger so don’t get bogged down in the details

Putting sustainability into context

Air pollution is killing 7 million people each year. So this might be a more pressing problem, yet also something that correlates with adding more green energies and removing polluting energies (both CO2 and local-level pollutions).

Compared to global health, the donation impact is probably smaller per QALY (added qualitative year), but that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t do anything about climate change.

Conclusion

It was another great evening that thought us many things about our personal impact, what we can do (and can’t), and what projects may be effective in reducing CO2 emissions.

Resources

✦ https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=bvhXtOps4MM (video, 12 min, My Carbon Footprint is Broken)
✦ https://www.effectivealtruism.org/articles/johannes-ackva-an-update-to-our-thinking-on-climate-change/
✦ https://forum.effectivealtruism.org/posts/yhKnbcX6YmTgLpfwJ/climate-change-donation-recommendations
✦ https://medium.com/@tsloane/applying-effective-altruism-to-climate-change-e2d703f6414f
✦ https://www.carbonfootprint.com/calculator.aspx

Intelligence is Partly Genetic

Intelligence (how high you score on IQ tests, or smartness measured in other ways) is partly based on genetics.

The problem is that we, as a society, value intelligence greatly and try and get everyone to be as smart as possible.

But, as it’s (partly) inborn, we fail miserably.

We should try and get everyone to level X. Don’t judge a fish on its ability to climb a tree.

Respect the diversity, whilst optimising for the reduction of suffering (not happiness, let’s leave that for another time).

Source

Book Review – The Cult of Smart – Scott Alexander

More Notes

There are of course differences to be found and created with regards to education and its outcomes. But as a society we focus too much on the maliability and the expectation of that, vs seeing that other opportunities (not dependent on ‘raw’ intelligence’) are also possible.

Use These 3 Questions to Talk About Death

We should talk more about death.

Because it helps us better plan for it and do it with more dignity.

See more notes at Being Mortal by Atul Gawande.

One way to talk about death is with these ‘simple’ questions, preferably over dinner:

  1. Has anyone died in your family?
  2. How did that make you feel?
  3. How do you want to have your death experience to be?

Sources

PT231 – Dr. Hassan Tetteh – Human Care Over Health Care – Starting at 29min

  • Conversation with perfect strangers, now still friends with the people
  • Liked that it was with perfect strangers, being able to be open and have a deep conversation

What happens when death is what’s for dinner? – TEDMED talk

I Have Died Many Times – CGP Grey

More Notes

Of people who want to die at home, only a third do (25% instead of 75%). Or 20-80% from here.

Another way of looking at death, looking at our history, is that we die many times. Our lives are ever evolving and we are not the person we were a few years ago. This will probably deserve its own page sometime.

Live for Now and Forever

I think you can think of your life in two different timeframes.

A part of you should live life for the now (and really be in the now, learn this via meditation). Be happy, strive for pleasure.

Another part of you should live for the future. It should assume that you live forever. That means you need to learn, retain that information, build your knowledge, relationships, and wealth.

Find a balance that works for you.

If you’re at one extreme, you’re addicted to heroin and working on getting the next hit.

If you’re at the other extreme, you’re busting your ass until you retire and find that you have wasted your life.

More Notes

This is not an original idea, so I should take some time to find other sources and possibly refine this idea.